Tuesday, April 12, 2011


There are only two person who which I am so angry and deleted them off my lists, either from any social networking sites, mobile phone, or even friend lists, and just wanted then to vanish from my life.
By not seeing them, not looking at their update and not listening from the commons friends ! Doing this actually cut them off from me, but somehow they always come back to me, in my mind, my memory ! They just stuck in my memory ! No matter how hard I try to convince myself I never get to know them ! Who are they !?
Both of them are once the lady that attracts me and the foolish me sacrifice whatever just to see them smile and hope that we would be together happily ever after! But at the end my heart just tear apart by them ! Or should say, I tears my own hearts apart!
They actually changes my life, the way I view the world !

They bring me to a realization that, 
"If you love someone, you would be willing to give up everything for them. But if they love you, they wouldn't ask you to." 
They don't, so it's me that's the one who things another ways round. Stupid Greg, you should have had seen it since the beginning.

I still can remember what one of them did to me, she actually chose to be with my best friend which will leave her after few weeks time, somehow I forgive my best friend who choose to be with the lady I was in love with which he also knew it. 
I still stuck with the question Why should I ? 
and that's the answer,
"How many times do we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them, even though they don't deserve our forgiveness?"
I don't want to lose a friend of mine, just that simple and it haunted me for few years !
During the final semester of my university life, there's a lady who came into my life, who which then makes the once wonderful memories we had together the worst nightmare I ever had !
I still remember that how happy am I when we are both sitting at the peak of the hill enjoying the view of the sunrise and the breeze.
That's the best feeling I had at that time but now it is the worst !
"The worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them." 
I never realized that at that moment until now !
The naive me just figure out the way to make you laugh for no reasons because I think that by making you happy is the best thing ever ! Now i just realized that 
"Love is never measured by the times a guy made you laugh, but by the number of times he made you SMILE after you cried."
GREGORY ! Do you know that we spend so much time blaming others for our failures. Take full responsibility & accountability for your life, ITS YOURS NOT ANYONE ELSE's.!! No one deserves the happiness that you should have !
Follow your heart and learn from your mistakes. Never look back and always believe in fate
Don't choose the direction you want to go in life and ask GOD to join you on the journey. Let him choose your direction & follow his lead.
Put God in the first place as he will provide the best for you ! 
Once are history, from what that happened actually make you stronger!
It might be very painful memories, but without those, how would you find the better one you deserves?
Treat yourself better, ok ?


Boy: "I Want Happiness." 
God: "1st remove d word 'I', it's ego. Then remove d word 'Want' it's desire & all u will get is 'Happiness'.
You will not getting something "you want", ego and desire doesn't bring then nearer.Put it in God's hand.
Thanks to those who has been hurting me ! Hope you guys are happier now !
bye ! 

Monday, April 11, 2011

Don't just HOPE...ASK!

Too many times we wanted for supernatural but did we ever asked for it?
We don't even dare to ask for it !
What is the one thing that you really wanted of for your whole life and you think that it is impossible of getting it ?
Why don't just ASK! and put the uncontrollable in God's hands.
ASK! for the move of the GOD!
ASK! Ask so that you can be drawn closer to GOD!
ASK! Ask with the right heart!
ASK! Ask and it shall be given to you !
God demand a partnership with us, if we don't even wanted to open up a space to partner with God, how can God help us ?
Go! Don't Wait! Do it ! Have Faith ! Obey ! Take Action ! Don't leave it to chances !
Sometimes we do ASK!
but we have DOUBT!
Doubt means double minded, we let it to God but we still wanted it in our way! 
A same goal but in different direction, how could it be done ?
You want it your way but not God way !
God always have a bigger plan for us.
No matter how perfect we planned for ourself, would it be better than the plan that God had prepared for us?
but always, we thinks that our plans is better than God's plan !


Matthew 13:44 , "The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field."
Let Go everything, it might seems stupid and wasted, but somehow it is worthy as the time has arrived.