Twenty24four

When you hit twenty four, this means that you have had already lives two cycles of Chinese zodiac.

Another year more, you will be already lives quarters of a century, or perhaps your lifetime.

What have you done???but this year I am not going to talk about that because I have done nothing.

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Everybody is special in this world !

Don't envy everybody. Everybody has something no one else has. God is fair enough.

However, since everyone are so special, there would be nothing to be special about.

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So it does the same to BIRTHDAY.

I'm not going to talk about birthday is another mother's/father's day.

I'm also not going to talk about my birthday and how am I celebrating it.

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17 June 1987 is my date of birth.

17 June is my birthday every year.

Everyone has their birthday, so it seems not so special to me.

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But,

What makes Birthday so special to me is because it's actually a time to review yourself.

A time to see what have you done to others.

Who on earth are touched by you

 How important you are in someone else life.

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Why say so?

Because if you have touched someone life, he/she would really actually wanted to do something for you.

and birthday is a day specially "designed" for you.

We celebrate Christmas because the Christ have actually came to this world by that day and touched so many lives since then.

It's a sign of remembrance. 

You can also measure how real, how true, how serious you treated someone or someone treats you.

Did parents ever forgot their precious child birthday?

Did life partner forgets their others half birthday?

They won't forget because they are important to them.

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With the creations of social networking sites, it brings the world together, but it diverted the hearts further.

Really curious about who do really remembered my birthday without the helps of social networking sites.

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Anyways, thanks Cindy, CheeYong, NaiCin who treat me birthday meals. yummy.

and also Janet, TongLip, Ngia, BeeHua, Kenneth who took the effort just to help me celebrating it.

also, to all those who greeted me as well!

thanks to you guys.

GreG

p.s.:

By the way, the aunty behind in yellow, I am not crying holding the cabbage looks alike birthday cake.

HAPPY FATHER's DAY!!!!

I never cry !

Being a guy, we've been told that "you can bleed but never have a tear ."

We are educated for Guys shouldn't cry.

Especially you, GreG. 

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I never cry !

and that was history.

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You can be strong when facing failure.

You can be strong when facing betrayal.

You can be strong when facing disappointments.

You can still standing strong even you are badly injured!

But,

Can you bear with separating with your loves one? I can't.

Can you bear with the death of your death one ? I can't.

Can you bear with the the failure you have done in lives and causes troubles to others? Again, I can't.

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The rains fall cause the sky can no longer handle its weight, just like the tears, they fall cause the heart can no longer handle the pains.

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Life is a bitch! 

Too many things happens for you to cry for.

As long as we are in this world, we are meant to be meeting with obstacles, pain, hurts, betrayal, disappointments, separations  etc.

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Does it seems weird for a big guy like,180cm and 100kg? imagine ! CRYING ???!!!! like a baby.

How funny was that!

It seems funny but it's not funny at all.People have their own point to cry for.

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Sometimes,

I felt that the purpose of us in this world is just to collect all kinds of unhappiness.

Until that day we are physically and mentally overload and breakdown, we died.

And again we causes another chain reactions of pain for other to accumulate, so that people can die and the world would not be overpopulated.

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People are just like a vessel, some have bigger containing volume, therefore they lives longer.

Some have smaller, therefore their life span is shorter.

Crying was just like a crack on the vessel, it helps to emptied out the vessel.

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Now I understands why girls lives longer.

It's funny how hello always ends with a goodbye, how good memories can start to make you cry, and how forever never really seems to last.

~G~

p.s.:

Crying doesn't indicate that you are weak.

Since birth, it has been a sign that you're alive.

是不是人越长越大，就越容易落泪， 因为经历了太多, 而越来越脆弱？

Happy Mother's Day 2011.

I never have lots of memory about my grandfather, because he passed away before I have any memory yet.

I never spend enough time with my grandmother, because she passed away when I was Primary 6.

I saw my mother crying badly on th phone but I didn't cry, I remember that I am going to have my UPSR.

I wanted to attend funeral but my mother said, "Boy, study hard!" then she continued crying.

Left to right, my grandma, grandpa, and my mother. I haven't exist in this world yet.

Happy Mother's Day, Mommy.!

Happy Mother's Day, Grandma in heaven.

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It's another Mother's Day,

It's the 1st year of my working year's Mother's Day.

My mommy is in Tawau and I am in Petaling Jaya.

I didn't Get anything for my mommy but just a call to her saying "Happy Mother's Day" at 2pm in the afternoon.

She replied' "Thanks you, Did you went to church ?"

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This reminded me about every Mother's day, when I am in Tawau, 

I must attend church's worships with my mother.

I never like to go to the church with my mommy, but I still go that time because she forced me to.

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Recent year, I get the freedom because I am at university staying alone.

I am so happy, and I never attends Church.

This year, I went to church alone.

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I flashed back a lots when prayer time.

Mother, I Love You.

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I know that you love me so much that's why you kept nagging me and I hate you for nagging me.

Now I understands why.

This is the only Picture of my whole family with my Grandma.

Clock wise direction starting from me.

GreG, Daddy, Michelle, Mommy, Esther, Richard, Popo.

It was my Graduation day !

and it's also the day I received the news that my Popo passed away.

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I never know that my Popo was that sick.

I didn't have any feeling when I heard about that news.

My Daddy also show nothing on his face, it was just right after my graduation ceremony, after happily taking photo with people around and we are walking to the car.

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The next day, Daddy straight away went back to KK.

Me and Mommy went back the day after Daddy.

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When we are at the funeral, I never cry.

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I am a strong guy ! 

I cannot CRY!

I am a MAN!

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The feeling comes when then starts to cover the coffin and nailed it.

My eyes welled.

Tears starts rolling all over my face.

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This is the 1st time I cried so badly after so many years.

I can never see my Popo again.

I felt even sad because it's been very long since the last time I talked to her.

I can't even remembered what's the last thing she told me ! 

This is the worst situations ever.

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Happy Mother's Day, Popo.

I love you .

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I MISSED YOU so much !

I really hope to have a last words from you.

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's in this world.

~G~

P.s.:

Now Daddy is 59, Mommy is 55. and I am 24.

They staying across the oceans in Tawau, and I'm in PJ.

I should work hard so that I can give them a comfortable life.

I must have time to take care of them and spend the quality time with them.

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Life's Short. People never appreciate anythings when they are still there.

Don't be the one who cannot remember what's the last thing the one loved you the most told you.
树欲静时风不止,子欲养时亲不在,满目青山空望眼,劝君惜取眼前人

Suggestion.

...but not the solutions.

This is not the total solution~

Read God's words !

GOD will always plan for YOU!

~G~

p.s.:

All written is the obstacles which I am facing everyday.

If it's the solutions ..i have had already killed by LUNG Cancer ~!

lol ~!

DELETE!

There are only two person who which I am so angry and deleted them off my lists, either from any social networking sites, mobile phone, or even friend lists, and just wanted then to vanish from my life.

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By not seeing them, not looking at their update and not listening from the commons friends ! Doing this actually cut them off from me, but somehow they always come back to me, in my mind, my memory ! They just stuck in my memory ! No matter how hard I try to convince myself I never get to know them ! Who are they !?

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Both of them are once the lady that attracts me and the foolish me sacrifice whatever just to see them smile and hope that we would be together happily ever after! But at the end my heart just tear apart by them ! Or should say, I tears my own hearts apart!

They actually changes my life, the way I view the world !

They bring me to a realization that, 

"If you love someone, you would be willing to give up everything for them. But if they love you, they wouldn't ask you to." 

They don't, so it's me that's the one who things another ways round. Stupid Greg, you should have had seen it since the beginning.

I still can remember what one of them did to me, she actually chose to be with my best friend which will leave her after few weeks time, somehow I forgive my best friend who choose to be with the lady I was in love with which he also knew it. 

I still stuck with the question Why should I ? 

and that's the answer,

"How many times do we forgive someone just because we don't want to lose them, even though they don't deserve our forgiveness?"

I don't want to lose a friend of mine, just that simple and it haunted me for few years !

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During the final semester of my university life, there's a lady who came into my life, who which then makes the once wonderful memories we had together the worst nightmare I ever had !

I still remember that how happy am I when we are both sitting at the peak of the hill enjoying the view of the sunrise and the breeze.

That's the best feeling I had at that time but now it is the worst !

"The worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them." 

I never realized that at that moment until now !

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The naive me just figure out the way to make you laugh for no reasons because I think that by making you happy is the best thing ever ! Now i just realized that 

"Love is never measured by the times a guy made you laugh, but by the number of times he made you SMILE after you cried."

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GREGORY ! Do you know that we spend so much time blaming others for our failures. Take full responsibility & accountability for your life, ITS YOURS NOT ANYONE ELSE's.!! No one deserves the happiness that you should have !

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Follow your heart and learn from your mistakes. Never look back and always believe in fate

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Don't choose the direction you want to go in life and ask GOD to join you on the journey. Let him choose your direction & follow his lead.

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Put God in the first place as he will provide the best for you ! 

Once are history, from what that happened actually make you stronger!

It might be very painful memories, but without those, how would you find the better one you deserves?

Treat yourself better, ok ?

~GreG~

p.s.:

Boy: "I Want Happiness." 

God: "1st remove d word 'I', it's ego. Then remove d word 'Want' it's desire & all u will get is 'Happiness'.

You will not getting something "you want", ego and desire doesn't bring then nearer.Put it in God's hand.

Thanks to those who has been hurting me ! Hope you guys are happier now !

bye ! 

Don't just HOPE...ASK!

Too many times we wanted for supernatural but did we ever asked for it?

We don't even dare to ask for it !

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What is the one thing that you really wanted of for your whole life and you think that it is impossible of getting it ?

Why don't just ASK! and put the uncontrollable in God's hands.

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ASK! for the move of the GOD!

ASK! Ask so that you can be drawn closer to GOD!

ASK! Ask with the right heart!

ASK! Ask and it shall be given to you !

God demand a partnership with us, if we don't even wanted to open up a space to partner with God, how can God help us ?

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Go! Don't Wait! Do it ! Have Faith ! Obey ! Take Action ! Don't leave it to chances !

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Sometimes we do ASK!

but we have DOUBT!

Doubt means double minded, we let it to God but we still wanted it in our way! 

A same goal but in different direction, how could it be done ?

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You want it your way but not God way !

God always have a bigger plan for us.

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No matter how perfect we planned for ourself, would it be better than the plan that God had prepared for us?

but always, we thinks that our plans is better than God's plan !

Booooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

~GreG~

p.s.:

Matthew 13:44 , "The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field."

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Let Go everything, it might seems stupid and wasted, but somehow it is worthy as the time has arrived.

Jeremiah 33:3

Jeremiah 33:3 

"Call to ME and I will answer you and tell you great and unreachable things you do not know"

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Yes, that's the power of prayer.

If you pray, at least you are doing something.

If you are not praying, you are doing nothing and wishing for something.

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God heard you and God is almighty God.

Always, we thought that and said that praying is useless.

But today, sermons from pastor Ooi Chin Aik strikes me.

why did our prayers fail?

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He said, "God is disable because we are not available."

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Don't let your pride push away the hands that are willing to help you get up when life is beating you up. We all need help sometimes.

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May be that's the time God using the others to help you.

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It's been ages I was away from God, away from churches, and away from words of God.

Having an unhealthy lifestyle, practicing unfavorable habits.

I felt so empty and lonely inside.

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You can only feel the glory of God if you are closer to him.

The closer, the more you know about him.

Therefore, right now, the first step is to pray.

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Sometimes, God speaks and want us to know.

We are just to busy to know and ignore it.

Should we says,"Lord, speaks, your servant is hearing you."

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The obediences is ours, the results is in HIM.

If we obey God, no matter what's the outcome, it would be the best !

Praise Lord, Amen.

May Gos bless you and me.

~G~

p.s.:

Don't give me too much as I will forget you.

God will gives us what we need instead of what we want.

Ask for what we needs, as if we get what we want, we will forget our mighty God.

你的女朋友值多少钱?

That day i saw this article.

某个综艺节目现场，女主持人气势咄咄地问一个男嘉宾，你为什么那么在乎钱？男嘉宾说：“钱能买到一切！”现场的观众哗然。

男嘉宾微笑着说：“我们做个测试吧。一个很简单的主题，你的一个仇人爱上了你的女友，现在想要你退出，那个男的愿意出钱来补偿你。”

所有的观众都很不屑这种论调，男嘉宾缓缓开出了第一个价格：“五万！”现场的观众松了口气，论点很集中：“五万，简直是瞧不起人！为了五万放弃了爱情？更主要的是放弃了自己的人格。”所有的人都不约而同的否定了。

男嘉宾接着开出了第二个价格：“五十万！”现场的声音小了很多，一部分人开始自己的算计了。过了好大一会儿，绝大多数的男人依然选择了否定，只有少数人接受了这五十万，其中一个说：“自己没有钱，父母苦了一辈子了，临老了生病没钱医治，为了父母，放弃了爱情吧。”

男嘉宾接着开出了第三个价格：“五百万！”一半的男人沉默了，另一半的男人怯生生地说：“我要爱情。”身边的女友也有点呆不住了，一个女孩子站起来说：“如果一个男人肯出五百万，我想我没有理由拒绝他。”

沉默的男人选择了金钱，五百万可以买一套房子，一辆车子，甚至可以开始自己的事业。

接着男嘉宾开出了第四个价格：“五千万！”全场哗然。只有一个人依然选择了放弃，他解释道：我的爱情是无价的。”当问到她的女友是否感动的时候，女友说：“我虽然感动，但我更感动的是为了我付出自己五千万的人，而不是放弃别人的五千万。他的观点很可敬，但不现实。”

为什么几乎所有的人都选择了金钱？那个人还是以前的那个人，他的为人和评价只是因为钱的变化而变化了：爱情是无价的，但面对钱多钱少的时候却又如此不同。问题是，爱情如果通过了交换还称得上爱情吗？

有人说，被钱换走的不是爱情，而是一种所有权，爱情已经走了。

再听听那位嘉宾最后说了什么： 

我相信爱情，相信所有的人性，所以我努力的挣钱、爱钱。我只是不希望我的爱情和人性受到别人的金钱的考验罢了。

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So now.

who say money is not everything?

If I have all those money, i can get whatever i want.

"Everything has a price", it was so true.

So ! GreG ! 

Sacrifice ! things that you couldn't get now doesn't means that you wouldn't get it forever !

Earn your first bucket of gold then everything will get better starting from there !

~G~

Puapa New Guinea

Since I joined this business, my parents was totally not happy and not being supportive in what I am doing.

Therefore, they dug out every contact they have and try to seek for the profession which I am studying.

They actually suggested me to go for Puapa New Guinea, located above Australia, and occupied the eastern half of the island of New Guinea, which left side is Indonesia. Papua New Guinea was once Australia and gained its independence some year around 1975.

I heard some saying that it’s easier to apply for PR in Australia after some years working in Papua New Guinea. I don’t know how real this is but I wish that it was real.

Growing up in the same small town with you is the happiest thing ever happened on me, it was like we are sharing something.I like that we are living in the same small town because I get to go where you have been and share the same atmosphere, may be the next person I met have been close to you and I get to hear a little but more about you.

However, when we growing older, everyone leaving the small town and went to big cities and live their own different life.

Australia, there is the place you further your education.
Australia, there is the place you wanted to get your PR in.
Australia, there is the place you wanted stay.
Australia, there is the place you spend Australia Dollar.
Australia, there is the place I don’t get to step in for the time being.

Once I wish I could gave up everything here and take my parent advise and then work hard at that rural country and then apply for Australia PR. May be at the end, I still can continue to share the same thing with you again.

How stupid!

~G~

p.s:

I you could be successful in this business!

There will be nothing that you can't do !

Believe that you can success and do it !

Dream it do it ! 

Don't just dreaming ! 

time to move your lazy fat ass !

Signs

May be I have been watching too much movie or reading too much books that get me crazy.

However, i starts to believe in SINGS.

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Have you Guys watched "Final Destination"?

There will always be a character who eventually become a "prophet" and s/he leads others to get away the "death" by some little observation of signs from don't know where.

And they avoided death.

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So i starts to believe in signs.

God may be giving us some hints and if we can pay more attentions, we might get what God wanted to tell us and help us to avoid something.

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Even from dreams, we also can find some hints.

Did you guys every dream of something and they actually happened ?

Or did you guys been to some situation which some how like "deja vu" and as if you guys have been been through it ?

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When having pair of pets with the loved one.

One passed away for don't know reason why.

Then eventually the couple breaks up after a rough time.

Can that be a hints ?

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Ahhh..I don't know ...

may be i should pay more attentions in every single little thing just that i can hints some hints and avoid some difficulties or get some fortune from that ???

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When you pray you get something, when you don't pray, you won't get anything.

God bless me.

~G~

p.s.:

Somehow when I'm back to my hometown.

I felt like i am Getting lazier.

Oh...and fatter.. OMG~!

I should just leave this place to avoid that ! 

But ..Ahh !! I miss this place and the people here too Y.Y

sad thing.